[Eeeeee this is so good he loves this ahhhhhh! Bolin squirms a little and gets up to come down on Wu's end and grab him up in a bear hug into the bed.]
[ Wu lets out a yelp, but returns the hug with just as much ferocity. He holds on tight. He feels so... good. So good and loved and happy, and those feelings are nearly tangible in the room, filter through the hug along with calm and hope and love ]
I want, I just want him to be happy. I'll do whatever I can to make him happy.
Right?! [ Wu laughs, returning the hug as much as he's getting. Glomp feels appropriate here, and he sure as hell is glomping back. ] I'm so lucky. Nobody gets a love story like that, do they?
[ Even if it hasn't been perfect, not by a long shot, colored by the horrors of Deerington and Trench, colored by Mako dying, then Wu dying, then making awful life-altering decisions. But they've made it this far. ]
[ Oh, boy. How much does he want to admit? Some of it, he hasn't even told Mako because it's kind of embarrassing. And he doesn't have the paleblood influence on him, just on the people he's around.
Is it weird to talk to Mako's brother about it? Maybe a little, but said brother is also Bolin, so ]
I mean, I always thought he was very attractive, but I didn't fall in love with him until... well. I don't know exactly when, but definitely by when I showed up in Deerington! I knew I was in love with him, then, and boy, that was kind of awkward. [ He laughs thinly. "Awkward" doesn't quite cover it. ] It kind of snuck up on me. Like, one day I was with him and thought "I love him" and that was it.
Ugh! Ugh! It's so good! Was it awkward because you hadn't talked about having feelings for each other yet? I kind of assumed you'd hooked up back when he was guarding you.
Or, well, he would have, if he thought he had a shot at all. ]
I thought he was straight! That he didn't like guys at all. No, no, no, we were strictly professional. He was working for me. That would be, would be a gross abuse of authority!
[Flustered, Bolin releases his bear hug and rolls to lay on his back, staring at the ceiling with his arm still under Wu.]
I guess I never really considered the option. You know what home was like and.. I don't know, I like girls, I do, they're great and pretty and smell nice.. but maybe I could be.. more open. I don't know, I don't know, I don't know!
Hey, hey, hey! You don't have to know. It's okay, buddy. [ Wu's a little sad to lose the hug, but it's inevitable. He looks down at Bolin with a small frown ] But you're thinking about it? I mean, I can't blame you. So many people here are in gay relationships. We're everywhere!
[Wow he sure just blurted that right on out there, huh.]
Ffh- I mean, it was just a kiss it doesn't have to mean anything and like you said most everyone here is gay but everyone is happy; everybody I know who is.. is happy. Maybe I've been going about this all wrong!
[Wow he's been. He's been holding on to this for a while now and it all comes tumbling out. He can hear it and wants to stop but can't and then suddenly it's all gravity siphoned out of him. Curse you, physics!]
First, though: ] You kissed someone? A guy? Who-- you don't have to tell me. [ Please tell him ]
And just because we're all happy, it doesn't mean you can't be happy with a girl! There's-- there's... [ Spirits, does he know any people in straight relationships? He hesitates. And hesitates. Well, oops. He doesn't have any friends in straight relationships. ] Well, you can totally be happy with a girl if you want to be! But maybe you could be happy with a guy, too.
Maybe.. yeah. [Softly. He didn't mean to bring any of this up, not until he had more of an idea of what all this meant for him. What he was gonna do about it.
But also it feels good to talk about it with someone. Is it weird it's his brother's boyfriend? But.. it's Wu. He's such a good person to talk to and Bolin trusts him. So maybe not.
[It's hard to take a moment when his whole being wants to pour everything out, but he listens and takes a breath. One, two, exhaaaale.]
I think.. maybe it was just a kiss. But maybe I also like him? Or maybe he's just a friend and I'm getting dizzy about nothing. We were drinking.. He's been having a hard time lately and I don't think he's in a good place so.. I don't know.
That's not nothing! I mean, it's maybe kind of rude of him to kiss you when he can't really mean it, but it's still not nothing. It doesn't feel like nothing, right?
[That's kind of the problem. It doesn't feel like nothing. Is it a problem? Maybe. Or is it just absolutely typical. Spirits, he might not even remember it happened!]
We were just hanging out. Talking about life. Stuff. Problems. One thing lead to another and.. we kissed. It was nice. It was A Moment. ..we haven't talked about it. But we spend so much time together and he's so cool and funny smart. He's saved my life and he's so... strong. It's hard to not want to be around him.
I dunno, I think he's all hung up on his friend who just showed up.. ugh. This is a mess. Should I go for it anyway? I don't want him to not be my friend anymore or kick me out..
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Date: 2022-01-12 03:21 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-01-12 06:27 pm (UTC)I want, I just want him to be happy. I'll do whatever I can to make him happy.
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Date: 2022-01-12 07:24 pm (UTC)Easy to settle into a cuddle, Bolin firmly koala-lizared around him. Wu hugs are the best. ]
I know you will. That’s why I trust you.
[A dreamy sigh.]
It’s so romantic. Like something out of a yuan novel. Bodyguard romance. Action, adventure, true love. I’m a sucker for soulmate stories.
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Date: 2022-01-12 07:50 pm (UTC)[ Even if it hasn't been perfect, not by a long shot, colored by the horrors of Deerington and Trench, colored by Mako dying, then Wu dying, then making awful life-altering decisions. But they've made it this far. ]
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Date: 2022-01-12 08:06 pm (UTC)Just the lucky few. Was it love at first sight? How did you know?
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Date: 2022-01-12 08:26 pm (UTC)Is it weird to talk to Mako's brother about it? Maybe a little, but said brother is also Bolin, so ]
I mean, I always thought he was very attractive, but I didn't fall in love with him until... well. I don't know exactly when, but definitely by when I showed up in Deerington! I knew I was in love with him, then, and boy, that was kind of awkward. [ He laughs thinly. "Awkward" doesn't quite cover it. ] It kind of snuck up on me. Like, one day I was with him and thought "I love him" and that was it.
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Date: 2022-01-12 08:53 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2022-01-12 09:25 pm (UTC)Or, well, he would have, if he thought he had a shot at all. ]
I thought he was straight! That he didn't like guys at all. No, no, no, we were strictly professional. He was working for me. That would be, would be a gross abuse of authority!
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Date: 2022-01-12 09:32 pm (UTC)[But. That's fair.]
I guess Mako does give that air. I never really knew he liked men. Maybe it's just you. I guess anything is possible for the right person, huh.
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Date: 2022-01-12 09:39 pm (UTC)[ That's a thought, isn't it? ]
But, we're happy now. That's what matters.
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Date: 2022-01-12 10:01 pm (UTC)[No one asked you, Bo.]
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Date: 2022-01-12 11:58 pm (UTC)It is kind of romantic.
[ He nudges Bolin in the side with a sly smile ]
Do you want to?
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Date: 2022-01-13 12:15 am (UTC)[Wow whooboy is he pink? No! You’re pink! Shut up! ]
I don’t know. Maybe? Yes? No one ever asked me.
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Date: 2022-01-13 12:22 am (UTC)[ Do you like someone, Bolin?? Because it sure looks like you do ]
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Date: 2022-01-13 12:31 am (UTC)No- No not really. Kind of. I don't know.
[Flustered, Bolin releases his bear hug and rolls to lay on his back, staring at the ceiling with his arm still under Wu.]
I guess I never really considered the option. You know what home was like and.. I don't know, I like girls, I do, they're great and pretty and smell nice.. but maybe I could be.. more open. I don't know, I don't know, I don't know!
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Date: 2022-01-13 12:36 am (UTC)What got you thinking about this?
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Date: 2022-01-13 12:44 am (UTC)[Wow he sure just blurted that right on out there, huh.]
Ffh- I mean, it was just a kiss it doesn't have to mean anything and like you said most everyone here is gay but everyone is happy; everybody I know who is.. is happy. Maybe I've been going about this all wrong!
[Wow he's been. He's been holding on to this for a while now and it all comes tumbling out. He can hear it and wants to stop but can't and then suddenly it's all gravity siphoned out of him. Curse you, physics!]
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Date: 2022-01-13 12:54 am (UTC)First, though: ] You kissed someone? A guy? Who-- you don't have to tell me. [ Please tell him ]
And just because we're all happy, it doesn't mean you can't be happy with a girl! There's-- there's... [ Spirits, does he know any people in straight relationships? He hesitates. And hesitates. Well, oops. He doesn't have any friends in straight relationships. ] Well, you can totally be happy with a girl if you want to be! But maybe you could be happy with a guy, too.
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Date: 2022-01-13 01:12 am (UTC)But also it feels good to talk about it with someone. Is it weird it's his brother's boyfriend? But.. it's Wu. He's such a good person to talk to and Bolin trusts him. So maybe not.
Sigh.]
It was pretty nice.
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Date: 2022-01-13 01:17 am (UTC)[ Wu reaches over to place his hand on Bolin's squeezing gently. He's here for you, buddy ]
Take your time. It's really scary to admit this kind of stuff. Trust me, I know.
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Date: 2022-01-13 01:25 am (UTC)I think.. maybe it was just a kiss. But maybe I also like him? Or maybe he's just a friend and I'm getting dizzy about nothing. We were drinking.. He's been having a hard time lately and I don't think he's in a good place so.. I don't know.
Sounds like nothing when you say it out loud.
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Date: 2022-01-13 01:30 am (UTC)How, how did it happen?
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Date: 2022-01-13 01:39 am (UTC)We were just hanging out. Talking about life. Stuff. Problems. One thing lead to another and.. we kissed. It was nice. It was A Moment. ..we haven't talked about it. But we spend so much time together and he's so cool and funny smart. He's saved my life and he's so... strong. It's hard to not want to be around him.
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Date: 2022-01-13 01:41 am (UTC)Do you want to kiss him again?
[ Because asking if he has a crush seems pointless because that sure sounds like a crush to him ]
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Date: 2022-01-13 01:49 am (UTC)I.. Yeah. I think I would.
[Bolin groans and pinches his temple.]
I dunno, I think he's all hung up on his friend who just showed up.. ugh. This is a mess. Should I go for it anyway? I don't want him to not be my friend anymore or kick me out..
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